Finding Myself

This is something I wrote a few years ago while living with my parents, but still holds true today:

I have traversed many miles without leaving home.

I think a lot of my struggle has to do with trying to find myself.

As a woman in her mid twenties living at home, it is my developmental task to find myself, and this is hard to do already, but it’s even harder while living in your childhood home with your parents. I am reminded of the scriptures that says he would loses his life will save it and that we must deny ourselves to follow God.

Do I continue on the path of uncovering more of myself, with the risk that it will lead me to destruction? Are we truly good or evil people at our core? Do I and should I want to get to know my heart’s desires and preferences? Will it lead me astray? What is my compass – God, myself, others or the Church?

I am facing inner turmoil as a wrestle with these questions and seemingly opposing worldviews. Lord lead me to the path of truth of joy and peace. Lead me to the safe harbor of your will.